Instead of a rush of emotions, I’ve been hit with a flood of thoughts and memories. Given a choice of how to react to my father’s passing – I think the latter is far preferable to the former.
Had to cut the lawn so it wouldn’t be 10′ tall when I got back from the funeral, etc …
Yeah, my wife likes to call me the “lawn ranger” as my fescue is one of my hobbies, if not an obsession. I think part of it is the beauty of the green carpet surrounding my abode – I think the other part is that I do my best thinking while pushing my lawn mower about the property.
Anyway, I had to cut the lawn, so as one can imagine, my mind was going off in a million places including these thoughts:
- I wonder what Dad is experience right now. I mean, I know that he put is faith in Christ, so I’m not worried about that – just curious as to what he’s seeing, experiencing and knowing now that he’s passed from this life unto the next?
- What is that final moment like? Wonder what he was seeing and feeling towards the very end?
Well, no need to have those questions answered anytime soon – I think I can (and want) to wait A LONG TIME until I find out!
Bitter sweet memories of various experiences tiggered by what ever I’m doing at the moment:
- Dad cutting the lawn with that 1st generation of (buggy) electric lawn mowers …
- Out to eat with the lovely and beautiful, salvaging as much mother’s day as possible, and wandering off in my mind of all the places Dad took our family out to dinner;
- Putting together an outdoor fireplace/firebowl for the lovely and beatiful for mother’s day (yes men, my wife wanted fired and hardware as her gift!-) … and thinking about all the (weekend) times I was called upon to be Dad’s ‘go-for’Â on a variety of tasks.
Anyway, been like that much of the day, and I’m glad for that. Thanks to so many of you who have called, emailed, etc … I love you all!
Do not forsake your friend and your father’s friend,
and do not go to your brother’s house in the day of your calamity.
Better is a neighbor who is near
than a brother who is far away.
Be wise, my son, and make my heart glad,
that I may answer him who reproaches me.